Hot day!

Just last night before i slept, i was on the phone with emmy, a good fren of mine back when i was working at haagen dazs way back then... man i didn't know that she's still not over the loss of her boyfriend Joel! and they broke up like... 8 months ago?! hmm, wonder what drives her so crazy over him... which made me wonder why i still so attached to laura... and just after posting my first blog, i went downloading some songs... which ironically, happened to be some sad songs about i miss you, i'm over you.... don't give on us.... urgh! almost everything around me made me think of her... to make matters worse i went to try to pick up a chat with her online, which was a huge mistake. Really ought to slap myself hard on the face... she got agitated, irritated or simply pissed, kinda told me off and... i was angry, at first not at her but in later part was pretty upset when she told me of how i was so not being a man, mentioning my turn offs and stuff, pretty demoraliZing... really inside i couldn't blame her, by simply talking to her and asking her what's she doing defeats the purpose of giving her breathing space and being free. now why didn't i thought of that... must get this mindset that i may be of lower intelligence among the normal human race... so after that, i was stunned, speechless regretful... and down as usual. was in need of someone to talk to and let out my emotions... so went thru my phone list and managed to find emmy. hmm, didn't know she had a rough time too... for like 8 freakin' months, unbelievable....
Anyway today! Started driving the 3 tonner for the first time. Was a little bit nerve wreaking cos it's big, powerful and... i dunno, was nervous. but after driving it for a while, i got the hang of it so it was fun! except when it comes braking, takes real skill to do it smoothly on that machine :oS The morning and afternoon sun was blistering hot, and it was cloudless! it was such a beautiful and calming sight to look up and see the peaceful looking blue space up there, fantasy thoughts of being at the beach, swimming and tanning with laura... ah f**k shut up tommy... anyway had little slept last night and i couldn't get a good rest during lunchbreak, cannot lie down to sleep and trying to sleep on the chair was like f**kin' uncomfortable... sigh. the rest of the noon was normal, learnt how to judge height and lashing of cargo with ropes. bought a car magazine while on the way home... mmm nothing beats the feeling of seeing tuned cars and having them in my fantasy thoughts. oh and laura smsed me, telling me that a fren of ours is 5 months pregnant! unbelievable... anyway congrates to adeline, hope she'll give birth to a beautiful baby girl :O)