Oh! I'm still alive!

Ah yesh... after days and weeks of blogging absence, i'm finally back here writing something again. The days between this entry and the last, i was still pretty much slacking like a useless goofball, hoping to come across that almost perfect job that will fit me seamlessly. Also along the way, i was getting to know some new ppl... yes, they are GIRLS. I really wonder this man, why am i only going after the female species? I myself kinda wonder that too... mmm, for one thing, i just feel more or less comfortable when talking to one. No wait... ah geez really, i have no idea. i am only comfortable to those who i know better or have know for a while. It's not that i'm searching for another gf, really. In fact actually at this moment in life, i'm not really interesting to getting to know anyone. i just kinda feel that... i'll go click with some new ppl after i get into a job. Weird me eh? In the past, i was a bit of a "flirt", so maybe that has sort of grown into me. Hmm. Although i do welcome anyone who approaches me (in fact, i should be glad if anyone actually does so), i do tend to get a little fussy when it comes to choosing who i wanna click with for a long period of time. As of now, i don't really have a "best friend", the last one gave up on me. It's sad that he doesnt know that i've already gotten over it more or less, it's his fault that we ain't in contact anymore.
Sigh.. just when i thought that after ORD, i got everything planned just nice... then the course has to be cancelled. Now i'm deciding whether to find a full time job or part time. Full time and i'll have to delay or possible deviate totaly from my intended future career. part time, still have a chance to enter the whole of mechanic work asap but till then, $$ will be low. I'm confused man. You know what, i blame the complex society we have here. Life would have been more simpler without all the ... ah you know what's around us.

Argh! *pulls hair*