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Oh my god, another freakin' hot day. this time it was afternoon sun burning the shit out of me. in the morning it had rained, quite heavily for like just a few minutes... then throughout the whole morning the rain came like on off on off... more on today later.
Last night, guess what? Laura called me when i was just about to get into bed. At first i was a little unsure of what to do when her call came, i mean like thoughts ran thru my mind like what's that she wanna tell me? change of heart? made up her mind already? i took a deep breath picked it up. in the end we just had a acsual 15min chat, mostly about out pregnant friend. she sounded happy... of course, she's talking about her friends... but when it ended and there was nothing left to say, saw a wee bit of coldness in her. i couldn't say much as i was afraid of screwing everything again, so didn't mention of how my day went. Well at least she was happy, out with her friends and stuff, comforting to hear...
Today at driving, second day at driving the tonner and i already felt quite comfortable handling it, except that today we were not using the same one as yesterday... IT DIDN'T HAVE AIR CON! all the vehicles in this camp have air con, mainly for the trainers comfort... but the tonner definately needs that air con on, or else it's a burning oven inside man! good thing i was driving in the morning when the rain came... oh and i had night training too, piece of cake. Haha, my trainer while travelling with me, always complaining how the other trainees in my group drive. He didn't have much problems with me, cos i'm that good! :op so like everytime while we're on the road, it's sometimes more of like a chat session instead of training. Also today, i had my first failure in my simulator training, believe or not, while driving i made a wrong turn and got an immediate fail for that senario... which means one of these i have to stay back after 5 to do remedial training, crap. :( oh oh, while heading back to camp to end my night training, i was driving along this elavated freeway and saw one of the most beautiful sunset, the sky mixed with the colours of pink and blue... infused in such a way that it really looked calming. Man i always wanted to drive along a coast with such a sunset in view with my loved one, this time i was in a tonner with my old malay trainer... close enough. again today i there was a lot of free in hand, due to some cock ups in scedule... and during those free time, again my sick mind's thoughts wandered into some depressing areas. i did try to look on the bright side, but all i see or to hope is to have her back in my life. don't know how long this is gonna last... for now just trying to get on with life... the hard way.
Last night, guess what? Laura called me when i was just about to get into bed. At first i was a little unsure of what to do when her call came, i mean like thoughts ran thru my mind like what's that she wanna tell me? change of heart? made up her mind already? i took a deep breath picked it up. in the end we just had a acsual 15min chat, mostly about out pregnant friend. she sounded happy... of course, she's talking about her friends... but when it ended and there was nothing left to say, saw a wee bit of coldness in her. i couldn't say much as i was afraid of screwing everything again, so didn't mention of how my day went. Well at least she was happy, out with her friends and stuff, comforting to hear...
Today at driving, second day at driving the tonner and i already felt quite comfortable handling it, except that today we were not using the same one as yesterday... IT DIDN'T HAVE AIR CON! all the vehicles in this camp have air con, mainly for the trainers comfort... but the tonner definately needs that air con on, or else it's a burning oven inside man! good thing i was driving in the morning when the rain came... oh and i had night training too, piece of cake. Haha, my trainer while travelling with me, always complaining how the other trainees in my group drive. He didn't have much problems with me, cos i'm that good! :op so like everytime while we're on the road, it's sometimes more of like a chat session instead of training. Also today, i had my first failure in my simulator training, believe or not, while driving i made a wrong turn and got an immediate fail for that senario... which means one of these i have to stay back after 5 to do remedial training, crap. :( oh oh, while heading back to camp to end my night training, i was driving along this elavated freeway and saw one of the most beautiful sunset, the sky mixed with the colours of pink and blue... infused in such a way that it really looked calming. Man i always wanted to drive along a coast with such a sunset in view with my loved one, this time i was in a tonner with my old malay trainer... close enough. again today i there was a lot of free in hand, due to some cock ups in scedule... and during those free time, again my sick mind's thoughts wandered into some depressing areas. i did try to look on the bright side, but all i see or to hope is to have her back in my life. don't know how long this is gonna last... for now just trying to get on with life... the hard way.
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