Actually....
... I hate to be alone. It seems ironic coming from a guy with is shy by nature. Though I'd rather go out alone than which other people, it is more like i rather go out with the ones who i wanna go out with than hanging out with a bunch just for company sake. Very contradicting indeed huh.
It's been years since my last relationship, but now some of the familiar feelings are coming back. It's like you know, when the conditions are right, things somehow fall into place blahblahblah.... only this time, new factors come into play. Very obvious ones.
It's sucks really. When ya like sucked into this sort of hole, not really by choice.... and you just don't know what to do. Get out or plow through? I would wanna get out, I'm not exactly in a position to be capable of maintaining an attach relationship yet... but the feelings are overwelming. Okok not that much.... But to me, it's a rare phenomenon, something that is too good to miss. Age is no longer a matter... yeah it's THAT strong.
Then again, being myself.. i am always insecure, especially when comes to dealing with matters than i have failed before. And that's when i'll start to mess up... No no no i dont wanna embaress myself or anyone. Sigh......
Was just finished watching Channel 5's new series Love Stories Anthology Series, for once our local production has actually produced something up to some standard. It was indeed pretty moving and touching, got pulled into the minute i switched my channel over. They were showing different stories with different situations, some ended good, others very sad indeed.
I guess after watching this show, it's best that I.... keep it within myself. For now.
Should I be ashamed? Am I foolish? Recently I'm not really looking forward for the weekends. PMS you can say. I bought myself a pair of rollerblades... so I decided to make weekend blading my weekly event... with or without company.
...of course, i'd rather have some preferred company. :|
It's been years since my last relationship, but now some of the familiar feelings are coming back. It's like you know, when the conditions are right, things somehow fall into place blahblahblah.... only this time, new factors come into play. Very obvious ones.
It's sucks really. When ya like sucked into this sort of hole, not really by choice.... and you just don't know what to do. Get out or plow through? I would wanna get out, I'm not exactly in a position to be capable of maintaining an attach relationship yet... but the feelings are overwelming. Okok not that much.... But to me, it's a rare phenomenon, something that is too good to miss. Age is no longer a matter... yeah it's THAT strong.
Then again, being myself.. i am always insecure, especially when comes to dealing with matters than i have failed before. And that's when i'll start to mess up... No no no i dont wanna embaress myself or anyone. Sigh......
Was just finished watching Channel 5's new series Love Stories Anthology Series, for once our local production has actually produced something up to some standard. It was indeed pretty moving and touching, got pulled into the minute i switched my channel over. They were showing different stories with different situations, some ended good, others very sad indeed.
I guess after watching this show, it's best that I.... keep it within myself. For now.
Should I be ashamed? Am I foolish? Recently I'm not really looking forward for the weekends. PMS you can say. I bought myself a pair of rollerblades... so I decided to make weekend blading my weekly event... with or without company.
...of course, i'd rather have some preferred company. :|
posted by Tommy at 11:47 PM
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