the day clara nearly drove my mum mad
the heat these days are really driving me crazy... and it's really not helping me in trying to cope with life around me. i didn't really take notice of the day's events until i got home, when my little niece really almost drove my mum mad... thanks to my dad who's been spoiling Clara(my niece) for long time. now clara goes to my dad for almost anything, hug, food, play... i could hear my mum's frustration when she was trying to bathe clara, but she was doing things so slowly and sometimes not even listening to my mum. almost all the time, when clara doesn't get what she wants, she goes to my dad and cries and ask to be carried. the last straw for my mum was when clara asked for food and mum dumb dad just gave her bread, with butter when she's not supposed to. the make matters worse, before my dad had given her some bread, clara had tried to open a bottle pills which belonged to my dad and had wanted to eat them! my mum was so pissed, she was shouting and screaming at my dad... and guess what? my dad, just sat there on his chair, watching tv, with that 'unhappy look' in his face, looking as if he didn't hear a thing. FUCK HIM MAN! i asked my mum what's wrong and she said nothing... man there are times when i really wanted to slap my dad for pissing my mum off... she has done so much throughout her life and my dad, ever since near his retirement, act as if he had given up everything. sometimes... i really wished i had a better family.... actually just a better dad, why do i have to look like him when my other 2 brothers don't?! Sigh...
today at driving... while i was with the group practicing on judging height and doing lashing, some big thing happened in the other group doing the parking practice. apparently the trainer lost his handphone, claimed that he had left it on the truck while doing a demo and it went missing after he realized that didn't take it back. 3 guys went to do the parking after the demo and obviously they were the main suspects. the trainer was like gone berserk when he found his phone missing and started doing body search and all. he even wanted to confine all of us, yes including the people in my group who were never at the parking practice ground! in the end it didn't happened, but still some time was already wasted and our course group was actually rushing to get stuff done... to make up for all the fuck ups the admin side of the camp had given us. in the afternoon, the sun's searing heat was making me so much... thank goodness i had brought i towel along. Oh and to make things worse, my truck, DIDN'T HAVE AIR CON AGAIN! i was like WHAT THE BLOODY FUCK IS THIS?! my trainer was also cursing and all... and during my drive he didn't talk much, cos the heat was making both him and myself really uncomfortable. and i was feeling quite exhausted too... was driving slower than usual and could concentrate on the drive as much as before. Tomrrow's my height and lashing plus parking tests, after i'm done with those, i'm just left with the driving test on the 24th.... urgh fuck that date, the 24th... (pauses to try to get his thoughts clear). the past 3 days, i dunno why i come home, feeling tired, exhausted... even though during the day there had been a lot of doing-nothing time...
seriously, why am i doing this blogging thing? i ask myself that and... i just felt like it. sometimes i feel better talking out whatever's inside, but to who? i felt that my life's complicated... why? maybe's me, which i don't think anyone out there can understand, i just don't know what i want, how do you tell that to anyone? one thing for sure, i wanna do something with cars in the future, but for now, i'm just probably taking a ride on the train, going wherever the train's taking me. And i don't want to be alone on this train ride, had enough of solo travelling on buses which i sometimes do in real life. Tomorrow, i just hope it'll be a good day somehow... like always say, look on the other side of the hill or whatever...
today at driving... while i was with the group practicing on judging height and doing lashing, some big thing happened in the other group doing the parking practice. apparently the trainer lost his handphone, claimed that he had left it on the truck while doing a demo and it went missing after he realized that didn't take it back. 3 guys went to do the parking after the demo and obviously they were the main suspects. the trainer was like gone berserk when he found his phone missing and started doing body search and all. he even wanted to confine all of us, yes including the people in my group who were never at the parking practice ground! in the end it didn't happened, but still some time was already wasted and our course group was actually rushing to get stuff done... to make up for all the fuck ups the admin side of the camp had given us. in the afternoon, the sun's searing heat was making me so much... thank goodness i had brought i towel along. Oh and to make things worse, my truck, DIDN'T HAVE AIR CON AGAIN! i was like WHAT THE BLOODY FUCK IS THIS?! my trainer was also cursing and all... and during my drive he didn't talk much, cos the heat was making both him and myself really uncomfortable. and i was feeling quite exhausted too... was driving slower than usual and could concentrate on the drive as much as before. Tomrrow's my height and lashing plus parking tests, after i'm done with those, i'm just left with the driving test on the 24th.... urgh fuck that date, the 24th... (pauses to try to get his thoughts clear). the past 3 days, i dunno why i come home, feeling tired, exhausted... even though during the day there had been a lot of doing-nothing time...
seriously, why am i doing this blogging thing? i ask myself that and... i just felt like it. sometimes i feel better talking out whatever's inside, but to who? i felt that my life's complicated... why? maybe's me, which i don't think anyone out there can understand, i just don't know what i want, how do you tell that to anyone? one thing for sure, i wanna do something with cars in the future, but for now, i'm just probably taking a ride on the train, going wherever the train's taking me. And i don't want to be alone on this train ride, had enough of solo travelling on buses which i sometimes do in real life. Tomorrow, i just hope it'll be a good day somehow... like always say, look on the other side of the hill or whatever...
posted by Tommy at 9:17 PM
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