15 hours straight
15 hours. that's just about... slightly more than half the enitre day? what would you do with those 15 hours? how would you spend it... what can you get out from that 15 hours... what can be acomplished within that time....
ahh, i'll just cut that crappy suspense thriller thingy, basic yesterday, i practically spent the entire day... what else, on the computer. i stayed up on friday night, went thru the wee hours of saturday morning, made some breakfast and heh... continued on. i was just surfing... and surfing... probably wonder what on earth was i browsing at huh. i would've stopped at 2 in the morning, but i happened to remember i had kept a particular copy of FHM, which had a section on this "100 Essential Websites". yep, went thru all 100 of them. learnt new stuff, laughed my ass off at jokes and parodies, the one with all those flash movies and games was the one that kept me going the longest. then... i had to come across this particular webbie. inside there contained the world's most gross, disgusting and urgh.... vomit-inducing and very likely to cause nightmare pictures of... *shudder* dead bodies, horrible accidents, scenes of.. brutal murders and crime... oh my god, i cannot describe anymore. i didn'y know what the fuck came over me, but my intuitive sick mind had to pull me to taking a peek at those gore shit. plus it was at night. i know that i'm a scared shit kinda person, my memory may not function well to remember stuff, but my photographic memory is the total opposite. Wonder why.. anyway, to prevent freaking the hell out of myself and soil my room, i resized the browser to a minimal size, that could barely see the images. it worked, by slowly scolling to see just part of the image, i can sort of have an idea what i could be seeing and stop myself there. spent an hour at that website.... shit man, why did i ever go there...
i only managed to take a nap in the afternoon.... then woke and i was at it again. then in the evening i told myself, i think i better do something else before i get reeeally hooked online. so... went to, i just simply don't know why, jurong point. i think it's cos i always go thru there before heading back to camp... so just walked around there... checking out the arcade, reading stuff... sigh next time i should just leave ALL my money at home went i go out alone, had to have a game when i was at the arcade. Oh... over there 3 china guys, speaking chinese and doing that china accent at my face, approached me and asked out i got the secret car in the game. i don't wanna explain all those detail.... but basically, i made those guys spent 6 bucks on getting those secret cars and thru that, i think they're gonna spend a lot more cos gotta build level and blah shit... heh. god damn those rich chinese students....
last night again stayed up all night... looking at news and stuff again.... hm smell rain *sniff* anyway got duty tonight, gotta take the afternoon nap and hope and pray no surprise visits....
just feel so sick of my life i'm living now. no friends of close connections, no company i can feel comfortable in, no one who wants to know about me and my life... whatever i do the misery still remains... losing the one who used to be so close and comfortable has never been so hard, hurt and painful. where others move on, i'm not just picking up the pieces of my own life, i'm trying to find them as well.
ahh, i'll just cut that crappy suspense thriller thingy, basic yesterday, i practically spent the entire day... what else, on the computer. i stayed up on friday night, went thru the wee hours of saturday morning, made some breakfast and heh... continued on. i was just surfing... and surfing... probably wonder what on earth was i browsing at huh. i would've stopped at 2 in the morning, but i happened to remember i had kept a particular copy of FHM, which had a section on this "100 Essential Websites". yep, went thru all 100 of them. learnt new stuff, laughed my ass off at jokes and parodies, the one with all those flash movies and games was the one that kept me going the longest. then... i had to come across this particular webbie. inside there contained the world's most gross, disgusting and urgh.... vomit-inducing and very likely to cause nightmare pictures of... *shudder* dead bodies, horrible accidents, scenes of.. brutal murders and crime... oh my god, i cannot describe anymore. i didn'y know what the fuck came over me, but my intuitive sick mind had to pull me to taking a peek at those gore shit. plus it was at night. i know that i'm a scared shit kinda person, my memory may not function well to remember stuff, but my photographic memory is the total opposite. Wonder why.. anyway, to prevent freaking the hell out of myself and soil my room, i resized the browser to a minimal size, that could barely see the images. it worked, by slowly scolling to see just part of the image, i can sort of have an idea what i could be seeing and stop myself there. spent an hour at that website.... shit man, why did i ever go there...
i only managed to take a nap in the afternoon.... then woke and i was at it again. then in the evening i told myself, i think i better do something else before i get reeeally hooked online. so... went to, i just simply don't know why, jurong point. i think it's cos i always go thru there before heading back to camp... so just walked around there... checking out the arcade, reading stuff... sigh next time i should just leave ALL my money at home went i go out alone, had to have a game when i was at the arcade. Oh... over there 3 china guys, speaking chinese and doing that china accent at my face, approached me and asked out i got the secret car in the game. i don't wanna explain all those detail.... but basically, i made those guys spent 6 bucks on getting those secret cars and thru that, i think they're gonna spend a lot more cos gotta build level and blah shit... heh. god damn those rich chinese students....
last night again stayed up all night... looking at news and stuff again.... hm smell rain *sniff* anyway got duty tonight, gotta take the afternoon nap and hope and pray no surprise visits....
just feel so sick of my life i'm living now. no friends of close connections, no company i can feel comfortable in, no one who wants to know about me and my life... whatever i do the misery still remains... losing the one who used to be so close and comfortable has never been so hard, hurt and painful. where others move on, i'm not just picking up the pieces of my own life, i'm trying to find them as well.
posted by Tommy at 1:33 PM
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