A Sunday Log

Yep, that's the VW Caddy i've been talking about. Just now drove to a multi-storey carpark in Holland Road to wash the car.... well that was the only place i could think of where there's this coin-operated water tap. Anyway the car needed a wash, the car was literally covered with dirt. 

I had a crappy sleep during last night's duty, the sky threatened to rain but didn't, the shelter at my area was c-r-a-p... but hey, in the end managed to get out of camp at 9.30am wee. Ooh before we went down from dog platoon, i did a burnout with the 1.5 tonner, had actually intend to take a vid using my fren's phone but we didn't have time... but still it was fun! there wasn't much of a smoke out as anticipated, just some black, rubber burning smoke (*cough bleah*). When i have the chance again i'll do another one, and it will be recorded :p

Some thoughts went thru my mind the past few days, mostly regarding me taking over as Shift IC. Sigh, i know to those 2 black fat bastards i'm a good guy, capable and trouble-free (until recently)... why the hell must i be appointed to be as Shift IC? Firstly, characterwise i'm not a vocal person, as my fren Shawn said in camp. Hell i don't even talk much these days, ever since the break-up with Laura last year. I haven't been talking much to anyone, let alone meet anyone outside. And these days i've found myself difficulty in even keeping up with conversations with ppl. My mind is full of things, but my mouth just can't keep up... or worse can't even bring it out. As of now, i feel most comfortable talking to just myself, like what i'm doing now. It's like i'm already used to being alone and left alone, when it comes to talking to someone, i just can't think of what to say. I know myself that i usually let the other party start the conversation and i'll usual carry on from there... i just can't start from the begining. And now it worries me. I'm probably meeting a couple of long-time-no-see friends soon, maybe including Laura and Dick... and this worries me. This, i can feel, is where i screw up. How am I gonna overcome this... i don't really know. The camp guys already see me as the quiet one.... i have no idea what will come to their minds when they see me as Shift IC. Bo-chap? Tao? Coward? Sigh... But this shift ic thing is still a little uncertain, there ain't gonna be any newbies coming in till late april, which is not good... and some of the guys are leaving in march, april... if i DO get to become IC, it'll only last for about the most, about 2 months... maybe from the period of late feb to late april... I hate taking responsibilties, especially this... the system of juniors screwing up and the seniors get punished sucks. I may not have much of a choice but to follow the trend, but maybe i'll incorperate some practices from the old old senior times.
Moneywise, still unable to find any work that i can moonlight. I'm slowly begining to wonder, is persuing my dream to be in the car tuning world... a good one? in this place i live in, even ppl with papers are finding difficulty in getting a decently paid job, can't say much for what i'm intending to become. again, i don't know where to start, all the time i told myself and other ppl that i'm taking up trainingship in ITE on car work... but the uncertainty is always there. I don't have a plan B if i don't make it.... at the same time i don't want to see myself working in a totally different enviroment other then my dream future. Sigh SIgh Sigh....

Nvm all these for the time being, pay day is near! finally, maybe i can afford to meet up with ppl again. $$$$$....