i'm back!

my gosh... how long as it been since i last updated this?? yep, apparently my computer is back up and running... all i had to do was to replace the bloody monitor. thought the hard disk had problem just before the monitor blew, then again i guess it was the monitor which caused that error message. anyway bought a 2nd hand 15" monitor, looks like new, and bought a monitor cooling kit too, in hopes of making this one last looonger. the past few weeks, erm months actually, as usual my work in camp taking up most of my time, still my thoughts would wander off elsewhere. most of my friends are currently 'busy', at least that's what i hear from them whenever i talk to them or so. recently i haven't heard much from my erm... ex, been hearing alot from her that she had stuff to do. yeah i believe her, end of semester coming and things due.... but always the excuse of "stuff the do"? whenever i tried to call to see how's she's doing, she always, or rather most of the time, she's with her friends, never elaborating what she's doing. yeah i know she is not obligated to so-call 'report' to anyone, this just kinda annoys me. i dunno, maybe this is just another something new, give it some time and maybe it'll grow in me. i haven't seen her in a while too, was supposed to meet her last weekend, or so i planned... was gonna give her that kenny rogers treat i promised to her for passing the advanced test, but my intuition proved me right that she already had that from someone... nah let's not put it that way... she couldn't wait. well sorry for dragging it for so long, i was waiting for her to have that free time for that dinner and all of a sudden, there. don't know whether she intended to tell me later, but doesn't matter now. her birthday's coming, got some simple plan to surprise her... just not sure whether my now downgraded creativity still has it's charm. she told me she's filming on that night, most probably her friends are gonna celebrate for her first... well i'm not the closes to her anymore... can't complain on that... hmm just realised that i wrote a lot on her... kk let's change for a while. oh, got my first ever bee sting last sunday morning while on duty. i had 2 understudy and had just finished teaching them the by-right stuff and were sleeping... at about 3 plus i felt something on my left wrist, i woke up and i saw this little thingy attached to my wrist, just below the watch line. then i saw a bee on the ground nearby, crawling in circles. then i felt a slight pain and then i realised oh fuck, that freakin' bee stung me! just 1 lone bee ok, and it had to be me and not those 2 fat guys sleeping like loud pigs beside me. i took out the sting and the pain intensified... so i applyed some tiger balm to it. i did tried to squeeze out something from it, nothing much and slowly the bite looked like a mosquito bite. later in the morning it got swollen a bit and man, it felt uncomfortable. now it's alright, just one little red spot there. never thought i'd get a bee sting in my life... oops it 8pm now, my bro's coming soon to pick up clara and me wanna catch that free CAR ride... urgh work and life sucks..++