Being with friends = spending precious $$

man...last night went out with a couple of my shift mates to jurong point, i dunno what they had in mind at first but i just tagged along cos so many were going... end up eating soul garden... which was much much more than i expected. blew 20 bucks on this... sigh... but it was good, the guys were funny, especially one of the new guys who was with us, that big, tall freak, eating red meat all the time, gobbling food like a machine and eating.... with his bare hands man! he's an animal... a barbarian! gosh there was one time the others guys saw him did something and i laughed and i couldn't stop laughing.. and i was full at the time ok! man... today i was lucky to be home right now, cos actually i was suppose to do the dog deployment at 5 today, then later drive the new guys up to dog sect at 7 for night training.... and then go for duty later at night. Crazy right?! thank goodness the deployment someone else is doing, and the night training is postponed till tomorrow night... phew. so far still no nothing from her today, makes me wonder is she waiting for a message from me too? can't be... whenever i say good night, she just replies the same. many times wanted to drop a call, but always i end up having nothing to say and making a fool out of myself. really wanna see her one day, can say i kinda miss her. then again she could be really busy with school, or with someone else. hmm... this weekend one of my shift guys is holding a buffet at his place, not sure whether to go or reserve that night in case she's free... many times i 'let go' my free time waiting for her... mm why am i such a sucker. feels it'a a little too early to decide... will just wait and see. just came to mind that dick's going to china (hahaha) on the 23rd for a week... or so. nah... i think i'll be ok. got my computer here, can blog as much as i want, as long as i just maintain it... nowadays me keeping in touch with this fren studying in aussie, miss those wacky conversations i used to have when i was with her... ohhh gotta stop thinking too much... dammit it's going to be 4pm soon, need to sleep, yet i still wanna be on the computer... sigh don't have much of a choice...