why the f**k did i take off today...

A real monday blues today, even the weather says it so. Sky overcasted most of the time, raining a while ago.. and i'm just here, wasting my life away on the computer. this morning i was woken up early by my shift guys, they had thought that i was gonna pick them up. i didn't answer the phone, just put it aside and tried to go back to sleep. i spent the entire day, right here in my room, right in front of my computer, do games, cleaning up the hard drive, tweaking a little and checking out the wonders of what my phone can do on the net. Clara, my niece, was being quite a nuscience today, my dad's voice as well... once again thoughts crawled back into me and tried to fight it off by gluing my eyes to the screen, concentrating on playing games. man, my eyes hurt now... i somehow guessed that laura went clubbing last night... was actually sort of waiting online to see come back. really i don't know why i did that... but hope you had a real good time yesterday, just hope that's she safe and sound now. no duties for me the whole week till sat... someone used me to take over his duty on that night. no complains for me, not like i have anything planned or to look forward to on that day... now wondering should i leave the house early to take long bus ride to jurong point and walk around or take my bro's car straight to camp much later... also lately have been eating a lot, maybe it's my way to put off mind things... definately not healthy... the world around me doesn't seem to move, yet the hands of the clock keeps on ticking... second by second, why does no one notice me anymore? i want to feel wanted again... *head resting on palm*