it's all about the $$$

guess what?? i've just earned myself my first extra duty just this morning. why? all because for leaving the keys to the dog van in the vehicle itself... nevermind that. it was more of my head IC being at the wrong place and at the wrong time. yesterday had half day cos got duty at night, so went home in the afternoon. that day there wasnt any drivers present, and my IC had to happen to want the dog van to be moved somewhere, volunteered to drive the van himself and couldn't find the keys to it cos i left them in the van, when i'm not supoose to . darn. well nevermind, no one's perfect. last night's duty was somehow... as usual, not easy to sleep. there was a PC visit at about 1am and i was preparing to make my presence to him when, thru the comms. set, se somehow stopped somewhere in the middle and stayed there for about half hour or so. i was like waiting and waiting... cos i don't like to last minute get myself up and my gun and flashlight... then i heard, ok he's coming out again.... huh still no sign of him. about an hour later i simply couldn't care less than myself wanting to take that snooze. later in the morning had some new form or training, practicing changing the magazine while attending to an intruder alert. pure erm... tiring man. many of the guys stumbled on getting the rifle up and loading the magazine... i wasn't spare either. came home just after noon, what a great feeling to be home so early. last night actually smsed her, heard from her that she's currently studying for papers. after her exams she's gonna plan to have a trip to thailand with her friends... well if she's really going, just hope that she'll be ok and that her friends better take care of her... she said that she'll still be busy during the holidays, with filming and stuff... kinda reminds me of what she had mentioned before that i'm the closes and most comfy to be with out of her whole circle of frens. obviously she having a better time with her school ppl... and probably already finding someone new... yeah nowadays i'm with better terms with my shift guys, this sat after the guy's dinner they're planning to go to Devil's Bar... really not sure about that. if i were to follow them, then my plans for her next sat would be like... on the line. sigh if only i can find friends who i don't have to spend much $$ to hang out with... why is it that going out with frens have to be spending $ on that food, movies, entertainment... really man, in this world, it seems like if you ain't got the $, you ain't got life... and frens. i really hate that. i mean even if i'm a millionaire, yeah i'd splurge on myself on cars and modding and ya... spending so much money on frens... ya it can yield a lot of fun and closer ties... but it feels like i'm buying their friendship with money. not that i'm saying she's like that... but if only she can see the way how i feel about friends... since i've got a feeling that she'll be busy with her stuff tomorrow, guess i'm most likely to attend my fren's dinner... free food, why not...