Super long day...

ahh my arms so TIRED and SORE! just this afternoon everyone did like 12 pull-ups and 50 push-ups... me no spared. man my arms are like stiff already.... last night's duty was super uncomfortable. everyone thought master would come out, in the end he didn't... fooled us again. just when i thought i could catch some sleep at duty, it had to be a full moon that night. oh not only that, the moon had to face directly into the whethershed where i was sleeping. FUCK! how to ...^%&*#%!!!! there wasn't anywhere else i could go, the one area which had trees for cover was facing the airfield, which had cold cold winds blowing brrr... sigh. so today's day stuff i was like -_- most of the time...
right now i'm still pretty much in the -_- mood, so nothing much to write for today. once again heading back to camp soon....

oh another thing, i was told that i wouldn't be an IC after all. the other black guy told me fren Lucas who told me that... ever since that Antis incident, he had changed his mind about puttting me as 1IC. guess it's good news to me... i wouldn't be able to cope with such huge respondsiblity in my hand. In the Antis Incident i already showed my true self, that i do buckle under stress. SO... i think i can start having the 'lao jiao ord mood" thingy already ahahaha. it's better that way, i'm already good enough being a man, being a driver as one of my roles up here.