Total.... boredom

just served my 4th extra... this one even came with an understudy, how fun. hd to teach the prper stuff, the routes, what to check and stuff...sigh. almost everyday i had to get sleep in the afternoon, like just now... in order to last till at least, the middle of the night. really ya know, i'm really getting sick of it. Getting blacklisted didn't help either, where the both black bastards will somehow find the slightest fault within me and make a fucking big fuss out of it. i've got 5 months left here, i really just wish to leave this place in peace.
as you can tell from way i'm writing, i just woke up.... and if you've guessed it right, yeah laura was in my dream... in fact the last 2 dreams i had. it's not that she's the turn off, it's the fact that i'm still missing her, and without her in my life just felt so like miserable.... but in this current state of my life i can only bear with all these and hope something good would surface somewhere.
all that's it for a sunday for me. i'm just gonna watch some funny vid clips to distract myself....