Silent stress

Ahhh... it's really sickening to do 3 duties in row. Firstly, it's really tiring, 2nd it's... can tell ya super tiring... 3rd, fuck i can't tell you how tired i am, like today. today the other shift was on off, so more work for us... washing both sides and groming and all. every afternoon sleep is never enough, i had intentions, real ones ok, to stay in to catch up for the loss of sleep, but i had to change my uniform as my rashes were acting up again. day by day i kept telling myself to hope for a better day and all the while, more shit happens. tell me someone, what to do??????????? sigh feeling so sick inside...
Just realized that my sister-in-law had recently given birth to another baby, at the moment not sure it's a boy or a girl. i haven't even seen the new born yet. well congrats to her anyway, maybe will take some pics to put up when i have the chance...
it's usually at this time of the day when i feel the most dwindling mood, just woken up and knowing that you have to get back to camp. I wonder, whta keeping me alive??? hmm... sigh...