Feeling really stressed, vexed and fucked up

till now those books are still missing, called almost all of my shift guys and all of them said they never heard anything about the missing books in the morning. what was most puzzling was, in the morning 2 of the other shift guys said they heard someone mentioning that the books were missing.... they couldn't remember who said it. if the books were missing, why the fuck was i not informed? why am i so worked up you might as, well i was the fuckin last guy who wrote those books and i'm damn sure i had put them back in to the bag before loading up during the pullback. i already had enough of shit for one day, more than i acn handling and this..... i'm on off tomorrow which means they can just recall me back to camp just to settle this fucking missing books. i'm really blowing up inside, i'm just bearing containing myself. at least some of my shift guys were concerned enough to tell me to relax a little and not think about it so much...
this has got to be the absolute worst day for me this year, aside from love matters. i am this close, THIS CLOSE >-< to doing stupid things...

*takes deep breaths and closes eyes*