Finally! i back here... but only for this one time...

yeah, finally i'm able to find a time, a place and whatever to update this blog of mine, i'm at my best bud's house using his computer... man if it weren't for him having an off day today, dunno when i'll be getting near a computer to do this.... anyway not say quite comfortable writing everything out, cos his computer is in his living room and he's watching tv and i can't tell whether he's looking at this too haha... well anyway much has happened between this post and the last... between me and laurie things have kinda gone back to square one, have to kinda keep my feelings to myself again, thanks to her frens... well can't blame them, they're just advising her in her interest... and i have to respect that.... still there're some things that are really hard to change in me. all i know for now, we're still just frens, and i still feel most comfortable around her. maybe she feels the same towards me, just that she's trying not to... ok put that aside, work life has been... rather so-so. being driver is cool, no need to wash kennel, do training.... just waiting for the hard part of being a driver. oh forgetful me, didn't eplain why i didn't update my posts.... cos my computer broke down! u see, one day i was using the computer, then i wanted to take a nap so i left it on to shut down by itself... then i woke up to find that it didn't shut down and when i restarted the machine, so boot error appeared. i was screwed. then the next day while trying to find the problem, the monitor gave way. first no picture, then while trying to get the screen back on, boom. screen off, smoke appears. Gone, finished. yep.... till now there ain't much i could do about it, need that $$ to get a new screen then may have to fork out some more $$ if i can't recover my hard disk. S I G H. anyway can;t think of what else to write for now, just hope i can get access to the internet sometime soon.....