LOL...

As it turns out... it didn't end that way. Silly me, over-reacting and being paranoid lol....

Scenario re-visited

If it hadn't affected me that much, I wouldn't be here writing at all.

What happens if, a person whom you've been keeping in touch with, just suddenly "disappears"? How would you react? What would go through in your mind? What is it that burning question looming inside you that desires an answer so badly?

Normally, one would start thinking about what happened to the other. Optimistically, perhaps too tired. Or left the phone somewhere. Maybe lost it? As time drag on, it is then slowly realized that it no longer a simply incident. The thoughts start to point to himself. What did I do wrong? Did I do anything wrong in the first place? Surely not... insensitive I may have been at times but from the last exchange of conversation, things were really normal.

And when you start to run out of possible reasons... you start to question "What is going on??!"

It was really unexpected to go through this, for the 3rd time. I could vividly recall the first time this sort of thing happened... and took me months just to get through and over with. I was still in secondary school at time, probably had a really weak mind. It was until years later, unexpectedly we got in touch again and there, I finally got to find out why.

The 2nd one remained unsolved... and it contained some really unpleasant memories, so much that I wouldn't want to even think about it right now.

And now once again... gosh. Alright for one thing, I know I am so not gonna get dreaded over with this because it is really, a big waste of time to do so. And some thanks to a dear friend of mine whom I was over the phone last night, we had a good arguement on how we think about it, I now know how this.... this kind of, how do you put it... "tactic" i put it bluntly, works.

Really, all I wanted was to hear that she was safe and alright, to allow me to have at least a peace of mind and let me sleep.

After some thoughts from last night, I'm kinda prepared to not hear from her for a long time, should she choose to do so....

it was really great knowing ya. Really wish I could spend more time getting to know you better....