Hmmm...

i just read laura's blog today, kinda made me think quite a bit about life. mmm, today i don't really feel like letting it out, rather i just wanna... talk it out within myself. wierd eh? i don't understand myself too.

why am i still so attached to her inside me? :o|

stupid flu, sucky day

last time slept at about... 5? just couldn't sleep, so i just simply stayed online...watched the vids that i download, played some online games and stuff... had actually chatted with laura on msn heehee... forgive me for being so kiddish over this.
this morning woke up with a stuffu nose... dammit got flu. my back's alright now... but the flu, urgh. the weather today wasn't helping much either, when i first saw outside when i woke up it was like wha, so freakin' hazy outside! no sun, yet the temp. wasn't cool either. it's a pretty fucked up weather alright. then in the after it rained.... quite heavy. i was feeling quite restless and vexed, i'm having flu yet i'm feeling hot, the outside mdy weather just adds the unpleasanence to my day. was suppose to go the the ITE open house, just simply don't have the mood to even get out of the house. sigh.... then tonight got duty... ahh!

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backaches, flu and dog bites

this morning while washing the kennel, all of a sudden i expericenced some discomfort in my back. i was feeling fine after i woke up from sleep... until while in the kennel, i was about to lift a pail of disinfectant when i felt a little wierd in my back. it then grew progressively worse until i wasn't able to even bend down, not that it hurt like hell... it just felt really really uncomfortable. that was it, no more work for me, so i was just walking around the place, watching the guys wash, groom, blah... i just didnt felt like resting. sigh...
then the sky began to look overcasted. signs of rain coming, ooOoh. i was preparing the feed with someone when.... i heard someone yelling in pain. actually i didn't paid much attention to that, sometimes the guys here shout at the dogs to ," GO INSIDE!" or "AHHH! STAY!!!" while in the kennel, to make sure that the doggies dun try to do anything funny. but this time, it was different, way unexpected. just moments later i heard a little commotion outside a kennel gate, Hector's gate. i took a peek immediately rushed to the scene and i saw one of my fella collegue, Mr SH He, inside the kennel, grabbing onto the fencing and writhing in agony. apparently he had been biten my Hector, and in number of places. anyway we got him out and sent him to the medical centre asap, while another senior guy went into Hector's kennel to teach him a lesson. sigh... actually it's good that SH He's gone out of duty due to this; he's gonna ord soon and we dun have to take all his trash crap nonsencical bullshit anymore. yay. Congrats SH He! You deserve a break!
then again, this is another grim reminder of the dangers of working here in dog platoon. i'm gonna leave this place in a few months time and i seriously hope and pray that i don't get any bites. :olater in the afternoon i got home and i started to feel... rather sickly. my nose was begining to stuff up and my throat... heaty... and irritated from the smokey air. i couldn't even rest properly in bed... and today is a saturday, also a night o freedom! and all i could do now is stay at home and... sigh. outof cash too... :o(

was thinking of washing the car tomorrow as usual, but that depends on how i well i am to do that when i wake up then. if not... gee i really have no idea what to do... oh ya, there's the ITE open house just next door to my house, maybe i'll go visit there... kinda interested in the trainingship programme.
for now, i'm feeling pretty sucky. no one out there to keep me company.... ignored and left alone.

Finally! Home

AHh yes, finally get to go home after 2 days in camp. felt like there's a lot for me to write but... not right now. especially when i just woke up haha. the first day was alright, just that the second day was urgh... was doing standby with this nco named Tan Yee Ming... the worst of the worst guys in dog platoon, who i can NEVER get along with. to me, i think he mildly retarded or mentally unstable... i cannot really explain how his behaviour is like... anyway, thank god yesterday evening's duty was cancelled, so i got the evening handler to come up immediately, to save me from this... "freeeeeak" ahhh....
then this morning there's this fieldpack inspection, cos there's this recall mobilisation happening real soon over the weekend... ok i admit maybe i didn't really much into packing it... while the others had passed, me and a few minority didn't quite make it. for me, my fat boss told me to repack the whole thing, why? he said he just didn't like it. $%@*%!!! ok, fine... went down and repacked the stuff (like i can't do that hrmph), went up and showed it to him again. he passed it of course, he ain't as heartless as the other brainless boss....
today i got home feeling oh so tired.... it really feels damn good to sleep on my own bed, even though it's crap to others haha. the recent bushfire around sort of giving me a little irritation these days... can't believe that our own island can have bushfire hurhur...
we ok i'll stop here. dinner time and... there's a new addition to my family! by the name of Nicole Lim... yep Clara has got a new sister haha. i don't have the pictures yet, will take some over the weekend i hope. :o)

i came across this by accident this afternoon. you know what, if it all works out, this could be one of the best selling female products during this hot season! LOL 

I seriously need help... in losing weight :o(

just took a shower... while changing, i looked at myself in the mirror and i was horrified, at the sight of my tummy. shall not show you any pic to save face :op anyway, actually i did anticipate the weight gain towards my ord, but after looking at myself just now.... i... don't know what to say. yes i do admit nowadays i have this compulsive eating disorder... almost everynight when i come back to camp to stay in, i'd always buy some supper of sort. the best part is, i'd sleep after eating. someone please stop me from eating so much! even my pants are begining to not fit onto me anymore! argh! *sob*
while on the way home, i got a call from the training branch officer in my camp... i was told that i was not supposed to park the tonner behind my barrack. the reason i did so was so that the next morning, i wouldn't have to walk all the way to the car park to get the tonner... hope my boss doesn't know about this. tomorrow i'm doing the NCO thingy, 2 days straight without going home.... in a way it's better for me, don't have to spend any $$ at all...
well that's it for today, nothing much to write these days.... oh oh last night while on duty, i actually wrote a letter to Sherrie, some old fren whom i hardly keep in touch with. she recently left a testimonial on my friendster, saying that i used to write letters to her haha... so i thought hey, why don't i start writing again! but i hardly have any time to write during the day, so i thought of using my duty time to pen to her.... on those little post-it notes. cool eh? speaking about writing letters... reminded me of the days where i used to have a couple of pen-pals. now i lost touch with all of them i think... maybe i shall revive the old times, what do you think eh? hmm....

Zzz...

i don't know why... the whole of today i was feeling so tired. since morning, my eyes have been like trying to close shut and i was feeling extremely lazy....even after taking the afternoon sleep, i'm still feeling zzz...how? a couple of days ago 2 of our guys got caught sleeping, it's a very serious thing... i don't usually go really sleeping while on duty, and i certainly don't wanna get into such situations too.... sigh yawn.
forgot to mention that there's a new dog in town, thwe name's Senna. he's a begium shepard, all black and he's weighing at about 40 kilos.. yes he's damn big! so much that you can't really tell whether's he just big or fat.... it is heard that the has some problem during baiting but now he; alright... we've yet to see.
alright i needa wash myself up and head back to camp soon, it's my last extra i'm serving tonight. finally, the suffering is gonna end.... :o)

OoOooh look! photos!

Bigfoot being run over by me lol.... "heelllpp... *splat*" 


Kenneth slump dead over the door 


this picture was taken within split-seconds after they were hit... and ran over. Realistic eh??? 


Presenting the true SAF men of today. From the left, Marvin, Wong (in the driver seat), Lee and Kenneth, hanging like a chimpanzee above. 

Lost my pants.... urgh

yes, my army pants, GONE. no idea how. yesterday after changing clothes before booking out i hung my uniform outside the barrack, what some of the guys here usually do. then went i came back at night to change, the shirt was still there, but the pants gone. so just imagine, how the hell am i gonna start work with just the uniform and without the pants?! thankfully one of the guys had a spare one... with 2 buttons missing from the top but nevertheless still waerable with a belt. seriously, who... who... WHO could possibly want my WORN pants?! another life's weird mysteries....
once again it was duty on a saturday night. as usual, no one bothers to actually work on a saturday night... most of us would normally go, "wtf, wtf.... it's a bloody SATURDAY!!! why on mother earth am i doing duty... of all days, TODAY?!" me retired early halfway thru the night, then pulled back the guys at about 4plus in the morning. actually nowadays, doing duty on a saturday night ain't that bad, rules are broken and nothing is ever done the right way. on the morning of sundays, when we have the free time, we do some NBTD (Nothing Better To Do) stuff like driving round loop areas, mass dog teasing.... some even wanna learn how to drive... for today we did some photo shoot. too bad i was the only one with the camera phone, the pics didn't really turn out that well but still you get the idea. after booking, had some proper breakfast with some of the guy at CCK, then 4 of us went to play Xbox games at Lot1. was intending to head home to wash the car... but now i'm getting a little tired and lazy... maybe i'll just drive around for a while later....

omg... it finally rained???

Ahh... finally some time to blog... but once again making this short... well i'll try to. yesterday after duty went to suntec to attend this this photo thingy, made our presence there for like half an hour and we were free, wee. the guys were planning to to ply CS at bugis... i haven't played that money wasting and vomit-inducing-if-you-played-for-way-too-long game for a long long time, might as well see how i fair with those guys. in the end, got trashed xo( but it was fun. after that the guys went down to the basement for dinner but i wasn;t hungry... end up sitting there talking about dogs for about... an hour. really i was kinda sick of that topic on that particular day... mood swings i guess. then, Christy called me saying that she was heading to bugis to buy stuff.... ah someone different i can hang out with! and so i waited... and waited... then i sent her a message... and she called me telling that she WAS at bugis but she's at home now. THANK YOU! she told me that she was tired, so alright, ok... nvm. after the guys were done with chit chatting, went home.

man today, had the rare chance of actually washing the kennel. some of the guys were doing their ippt (like me, but i was smart enough to cancel mine cos i know, i can never maek it :oD), so there's a little short in manpower. i hate sweating in army uniform, and yes i know the guys around pretty agree with me so. urgh... thought i could have my uniform to last me another day... ooh ooh then in the afternoon, i watered the grass! as you all have notice obviously, the grass everywhere in this island is turning brown. at our side here, our main concern is the possibility of bush fires appearing, so preventive measures are needed to be taken. thus enter me, for i volunteered to water the dying and drying grass! lol.... yeah while the others were doing some usual work, i went into the kennel area, pulled out the pipe and started sprayin'. Me manual sprinkler man!
... then later in the afternoon something pissed me off.... it started to rain for the first time in weeks. fuck, i wasted my time being an idiot out there in the sun. NVM, i'll just take it as if my watering of the dying grassing is a sign to the One upstairs that he's not doing his job, take that!
btw, today laura took her driving test.... and wow she passed first time round. She's so amazing, actually i knew she could do it. ;) i do feel happy for her.... now that she can drive legally on the road, using her dad's car, and i still doing the ridiculous stunt of driving without a proper driving licence sigh.... but hey! i'll eventually convert mine soon. Soon, soon. :)
so much for trying to keep this short eh? i can never follow whatever i plan for myself hai.... time to have some time alone in my room, Lush 99.5 please....

what's with my internet connection these days?!

gah... just when my connection has finally gone stable, i have to go. oh well blog tommorrow then.... sigh

Cont' from yesterday's

yes... sigh actually this isn't a good time for me to bla-og, cos i jusht woke up, and my mind now is pretty groggy.... my body aching more somehow... but still feeling compelled to blog. wee-erd huh? ok anyway, basically last night had another 'reunion' dinner, gotta love that yu sheng stuff. had realized that i lurve eating that.
really wonder what's with the blar-die dry spel these days... oh speaking of that, guess what happened at around 2plus pm today??? it actually RAINED! oh yeah... but it was just a passing show.... a really short one, that lasted for only like around 1 minute. anyway back to the topic, it's been so dry these days that there're even bush fires starting all over the island.... the grass around are even turning brown! this is pretty scary ya know. once again forgive me trash talk, i just woke up.
this friday was supposed to take my ippt, but i asked to cancelled it cos i know i definately still can't make a pass. its a high chance now that if i still don't pass, some shit confinement punishment is gonna be melted out for me... but seriously i don't know why i still don't give much of a shit about it.... i feel like, i need someone to really push me to work myself out. yayayagaagaa... just woke up ok?
later heading back to camp for duty, oh and tomorrow after duty gonna go to this sunctec city for some super short photo exhibition, regarding total defence in singa... ARGH i'm gonna wash up and go back to sleep. i think i still need more of it. *trots out of the room*

Another beautiful evening captured.  

What's with dry spell these days?

yeah.. no rain at all... weather hot like oven.... even the grass..... err damn, my bro's going home now... cont when i get home tomorrow afternoon....

A Single's Monday Blues

Sigh

Valentine's Day

For the first time in 3 years, i'm going through this day, alone.

Sucks.... so i'm not gonna write much about today.

Last night's duty was crap, couldn't sleep in peace, though there was a wild boar passing by, my first sighting of one. then sending Antis to the hospital, along the way don't know how many times i nearly fell asleep on the wheel, the van slowly veering towards the side so many times heh... scary eh?

i'm feeling, not only tired, pretty souless myself too. no aim, no nothing... urgh. A little confession for today, if i were to find love in someone, she gotta have at least some looks to go along too. Laura may not have the perfect bod, she has one hell of an attractive appearance... that somehow made her look good all over. And yes, i am attracted to girls that are similar to Laura's figure, that curvy plump look with ample bosoms. Fetish? Nah, i call it personal preference. To me, having someone who looks good makes me feel... good! it's like, you're a poor guy who owns a ferrari but you feel like a million bucks, ya dig? nvm..... anyway wtf doing all these confessions?!

back to reality, there's not much to do other than watch the day end and await the next to arrive.

Another entry (aka another title filler)

the guys in barrack watching tv before heading out for duty... and what were they watching? Power Rangers The Movie -_- 

saturday was urgh... tired. that was in the evening. the night before i was the only joker to come back to camp to sleep over; my shift was on duty and the other shift was on off the next day. didn't really sleep well. anyway, went to work as usual on saturday morning... end rather early at about 10am. was gonna go home and relax when Christy, yesh that new friend of mine, smsed me that she had problems and... since me being sooo free for the entire day plus my duty for that night is sl**k :D, offered to accompany her. went to changi airport, took bus back to town, hung around orchard for a while b4 heading home in the evening. goodness what was i doing... but i was alright with it... nothing wrong to be some company for someone right? then when it came to doing my duty last night, slept like a log zzzzzz.... awsome.
i jus checked out laura's blog and i was like whoa... she looked busy as hell.... guess she pretty had a super duper good cny. even she herself looked... *drool*... shakes head and wakes up* then this got me wandering. i've been trying many times to meet up with her... should i continue trying? so far i've never been in contact with her for a real long while... nothing from her too... hmm.... hmmm..
ooh v-day's tomorrow... ironically heh... 3 of my shift mates who had patched up with their gfs, broke up just recently. Ooh heartbreak... what's worse, those 3 guys took leave on the 14th since last month. i've got nothing to say.
later this evening i'm supposed to attend a friend's house warming... actually i'm quite reluctant to go... i've got extra duty tonight for goodness sake... plus the next morning i'm driving Antis to the hospital for routine check-up! was thinking of driving the Caddy to his house warming... but then again the next day i'm doing 8-5... plus i was thinking of staying in cos i wanna avoid depressing myself while being exposed to couples holding flowers and whatever outside.... what a COCK new year urgh..
well that's it for now. gonna burn some car vid clips to watch tomorrow night in the barracks. :D

view taken from the 28th storey flat somewhere in lavander.... cool huh? btw just woke up from sleep and my throat got worse, now sounding totally different. urgh.... 

Getting in touch with a long lost feeling

phew... just came home, had actually left the house last evening with the intention of only meeting up with this friend i met on friendster... what after that everything was totally unplanned.
it all started with me playing with this habbo hotel on the net, pretty funky chat place heh. then later went out to bugis, to meet up with this friendster pal Christy, who i was smsing earlier noon. she said that wouldn't mind meeting up... since i always have this impulsive behaviour of making quick and snappy decisions, soooo just decided to meet up with her for the first time. i was a little uneasy with myself, being such a quiet ass with nothing much to talk about these days... but can't do much about it either so had to see how it goes. SO... first surprised her at the arcade, then we walked round bugis once before heading to long john silvers for a quick dinner, then took a bus to marina promenade to check out the river hao boa thingy (bloody crowded)... then from there walked to the esplanade where she had never actually went in before... then proceeded to walk across the bridge to one fullerton... then to boat quay where we stopped to chat at mac over there.... after than continued walking down boat quay to clarke quay, made a round there then back towards bugis area. walk walk talk talk... played pool at this pool centre at bugis (which i found out that ive pretty lost much of my pool skills)... after that walked past bugis towards lavender where she lived... hanged out at this playground and chatted all night till dawn. pretty cool huh? as a result from all these, i now have a sore throat, a tired body and a blistered toe.... but i tell ya, it was worth it. it's been a long while since i had a good, fun and comfy chat with anyone... it brought back memories of how i was like when i was with laura. during that night i somehow found myself again... the real me, cranking jokes, putting up lame stuff and making fun... best of all i actually had stuff to talk about, amazing. i'm not saying that i've found the one... how can that possibly happen in just one night and especially when only meeting up for the first time.... but strangely i felt comfortable around, maybe it's her open minded and yacky character... she just got the ball rolling and i just added in more stuff. after she had offered me some much needed throat candy and a badly needed drink, i was on my way home... and i was feeling... happy. happy to hae found that real me (or so i thought) again. at least i know that i still have it in me. :) all the while i had never intended to stay out throughout the night, play pool and send someone home.. or rather walk -_-, but real this is a real surprise. I'm happy! and bloody tired too....

... but there's also one bad thing that came along with this... i got 2 freaking big pimples on my right cheek. KNNBCCB.....

Kent Ridge Park

View from Kent Ridge Park, overlooking the south sea during evening 


looks as if some superhuman being is making its appearance from up there huh... hahaha 


another view, more towards the south west 


this one's taken from the so-called "viewing spot". this the the only clear view from here, thanks to the trees.... it's amazing, isn't it? up here it's gotta be like at least 30-40 storeys high. 

sad to say, it's a another lonely day...

i'm feeling a little sober. yesh, i was drinking... a little just now. made some vodka with whatever soft drink i had in my house... still can't figure out why such stuff makes ppl high. all i feel is my face turns red, can literally hear and feel my heartbeat in my head... that's pretty much it.
last night's dinner was good, steamboat that made me soooo full... but later at night, was quite pissed off to find that our dog sect 2IC was there in camp to make sure that we don't do any stunt during the new year. bloody crap, had to do everything by right, thank god he didn't stay over... lazy fat pig coming here for f**k... next morning was supposedly done with washing and out of camp at around 8... but further delays caused everyone to only get out at around 10, which is like the time we usually go on a sunday morning. sheesh...
though its the new year today, never went visiting nor anyone visited us today... according to my mum tomorrow relatives from malaysia likely to drop by here. the morning started off well.... realt just like any other sunday, except my eldest bro came with her daughter, the now more-defiant-than-ever Clara. at noon i took a nap, then woken up by my mum to have lunch. later in the evening my parents went to marian promenade to see the new year thingys there.... while i was alseep. imagine waking up and finding no one at home... sigh. So, i washed up and drove to kent ridge park to take some paronamic view of the south sea.... then i forgot to bring the camera back up home from the car. from the park drove to orchard... wow lotta ppl walking around, in a place where 80% of the shops are closed. luckily, the cold storage at centrepoint was still open till 7, managed to get some drinks and food for myself. from there, the drive home and dinner in front of the tv.

actually, the reason why i was drinking just now was that... i'm really sick of living my life like this. i know if i wanna have a better life, i should do something about it but.... i don't have the moivation. there's no carrot in front of me to move... no one around who i can talk to comfortably and openly.... all the while i was always hoping for something good to happen my way.... saying to myself that my life can't be that bad always... you know, seeing couples out there sometimes ticks me off. i just felt that way.... yeah maybe i'm jealous of them, thinking how lucky they are... then i would try to console myself by saying that they'll never last and stuff like that...

just don't feel alive anymore.

Duty! on chinese new year's eve.... %#@*%!!!

sigh yeah, gonna usher in the year of the cock, wearing my army uniform, carrying a rifle and hold a dog. i should be holding on to a bloody chicken instead. now this is the downside of working as a RP in the army... yes DOg Platoon is also under RP... no matter what holidays come by, international or local, or your own... camp security must ALWAYS be there. thus my camp's motto: to protect tengah airbase from blahblahblah.... 24 hours, 7 days, 365 days... there will always be the unlucky ones who have to fore-go there personal appointments, to stay in camp and ... just stay in there. what a COCK-ass way to celebrate the CNY eh?
fortunately, the army is well, not always that bad.... tonight we get to book in much later than usual, and we'll try to leave the place as early as possible the next morning. how about.. 8am? possible! just that the dogs will have to suffer just a little. from what i heard from my mum, the next 2 days of holiday we ain't going visiting, in fact we'll have visitors, including ones from malaysia. OoOh... for me, i ain't gonna stay at home... most probably gonna try, TRY, to find someone to hang out with... got the Caddy with meh! these days i'm getting used to the car's sticky clutch, i feel like a pro already, the car's like... 'not enough for me'. want more OMPH! *starts to picture his eldest bro's red Kia*
well as for tonight's reunion dinnar, don't think it's extravagant in any way, hope it's a good one. for now i'm just gonna catch a nap and rest... Happy (-_-) Chinese New Year.

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and wouldn't trade it for anything else :)


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Sunday, sunday.. SUNday.

i woke up at 5 today, thanks to me forgetting to turn off the alarm in my phone... but it's alright with me, being used to having little sleep. in the morning drove myself and my mum to tanglin halt for breakfast at this coffeeshop, not in the main one, where this stall sold, according the my mum, really good vegetarian food. she was damn right. after that drove to holland road where she bought flowers for the new year.... just before i washed the Caddy again, didn't know by leaving the car just like that for 2 weeks it looked like it went through some dirt storm. early afternoon drove my parents to someone's house where i was supposed to go too, but i had duty tonight so needed the sleep. pretty boring day, if it weren't for the stupid extra that i have to serve tonight i would've been somewhere in town wandering about. hmm.

A day spent... alone.

ahh... it always feels so good to be home after spending some many days away. the past 2 days on duty was a total killer, the tv was spoilt. yes, our only source of entertainment to keep us sane is gone. how did i managed to survive those 2 days without tv up there? radio, sleeping and my phone games. during the first days was pure bad luck, one thing led to another and for the rest of that night, my mood was really low. the 2nd wasn't so bad...and there's today. :)
today immediately after leaving camp, i followed some guys to the arcade in jurongpoint. after that went home... god i was like so tired, but yet i felt the need to go out cos it's a saturday and i just got pay and tonight i don't need to go back to camp. i had actually intended to go shopping for clothes at bugis.... ended up i got car wash stuff and a new mp3 player. :( i really don't know why i have this impulsive money spending behaviour, when i got home i was like silently crying to myself in my room, asking myself why why why am i doing things without thinking and blah... it sucks to shop alone really. i couldn't find anything i liked, went to almost every clothes shop around... even browsed at top man in bugis...still nothing appealing caught my eye. maybe it's becos i've never been shopping at all, have no... experience or something like that. sigh....
towards the end of the day, i noticed that i was experiencing some pain just below my left knee. it was rather uncomfortable, felt like some bone was slightly dislodged. i knew that my knee sometimes got like weird things happening, usually i'd brush them off... this time it felt more serious. my right ankle too, could feel like the joints were rubbing each other alot.... nowadays i sometimes feel a little funny while walking. to be frank, i'm feeling a little scared. i just don't know why... just have this afraid feeling in me, like something unpleasant might happen to me... :(
just now went to check out laura's blog... man just can't help to feel jealous to see her with this kevin guy... i know i'm not suppose to feel like this but.... it's this natural feeling that comes to you when that someone who you still like is being with another guy who is possible much... well i think it's more definately, more better than me... at the same i just wanna see how she's doing. obviously she's doing fine, no need to ask... how? how....
hmm... this just came to my head, with v-day (sigh) coming, somehow couples are actually breaking up. kenneth just came out from a patched up relationship with his ex.... john err think also not with anyone now....

i'm tired now, really sleepy.

oh wait, a while ago my mum caught me talking to myself. is it wrong to talk to one's self? my mum got freaked out and told me not to do that again, laughable but heh... in a way does freak ppl out sometimes. ok that's it.... off to bed....

A day spent... alone.

ahh... it always feels so good to be home after spending some many days away. the past 2 days on duty was a total killer, the tv was spoilt. yes, our only source of entertainment to keep us sane is gone. how did i managed to survive those 2 days without tv up there? radio, sleeping and my phone games. during the first days was pure bad luck, one thing led to another and for the rest of that night, my mood was really low. the 2nd wasn't so bad...and there's today. :)
today immediately after leaving camp, i followed some guys to the arcade in jurongpoint. after that went home... god i was like so tired, but yet i felt the need to go out cos it's a saturday and i just got pay and tonight i don't need to go back to camp. i had actually intended to go shopping for clothes at bugis.... ended up i got car wash stuff and a new mp3 player. :( i really don't know why i have this impulsive money spending behaviour, when i got home i was like silently crying to myself in my room, asking myself why why why am i doing things without thinking and blah... it sucks to shop alone really. i couldn't find anything i liked, went to almost every clothes shop around... even browsed at top man in bugis...still nothing appealing caught my eye. maybe it's becos i've never been shopping at all, have no... experience or something like that. sigh....
towards the end of the day, i noticed that i was experiencing some pain just below my left knee. it was rather uncomfortable, felt like some bone was slightly dislodged. i knew that my knee sometimes got like weird things happening, usually i'd brush them off... this time it felt more serious. my right ankle too, could feel like the joints were rubbing each other alot.... nowadays i sometimes feel a little funny while walking. to be frank, i'm feeling a little scared. i just don't know why... just have this afraid feeling in me, like something unpleasant might happen to me... :(
just now went to check out laura's blog... man just can't help to feel jealous to see her with this kevin guy... i know i'm not suppose to feel like this but.... it's this natural feeling that comes to you when that someone who you still like is being with another guy who is possible much... well i think it's more definately, more better than me... at the same i just wanna see how she's doing. obviously she's doing fine, no need to ask... how? how....
hmm... this just came to my head, with v-day (sigh) coming, somehow couples are actually breaking up. kenneth just came out from a patched up relationship with his ex.... john err think also not with anyone now....

i'm tired now, really sleepy.

oh wait, a while ago my mum caught me talking to myself. is it wrong to talk to one's self? my mum got freaked out and told me not to do that again, laughable but heh... in a way does freak ppl out sometimes. ok that's it.... off to bed....

Short and sweet entry... erm not really

just now i was taking the lift back to my house. inside with me was this short old timid looking lady. i pressed the button to my floor which is 10 and then she pressed no. 18. After the door closed, we waited. 1st storey.... 6th storey... 14th storey... then the lady told me that the lift didn't stop at my floor.

WTF?!?!?!?!

When the lift reached the 18th storey which is the top floor, she got out and i was like furiously pressing the no. 10 button, yet i still don't see the lift show that it's going down. then this guy came in and saw me, pressed the 14th storey button and he too was like pressing that button repeated. actually he was trying the see whether there's light on the that button. no light on my 10th storey button. the 14ht one was working, and while on the way down i realized that that guy was the lift technician, and i so i told him that the 10th storey button wasn't working. And then he went, "yeah..." nodded his head. i got out at the 14th storey and he too came out, upon doing that he proceeded the stick that "Lift under maintainence" sign at the lift button. I then walked 4 storeys down to my house.

Interesting eh??

anyway, tomorrow i'm doing the NCO thingy, just got my 400 ers bucks woohoo! unfortunately due to my impulsive $$ spending behaviour, i got myself a 2nd nokia 8855.... i've always wanted to get that phone as my spare phone, and so i did. 175 bucks, flew away.... just like that. hey i really liked that phone ok.... but i really hate myself more. *sob* New wishlist: to have someone to control my bad $ spending attics.

ok, time to head back to camp, see ya in 2 days time, whoever's reading this.

Really, there's nothing to write... but just felt like it

yesh.... just went thru another rather rountine day, it's my 2nd duty dismount, basically after leaving camp i went home to surf the net a little then sleep. now i just woke up and heading back to camp soon. Gawd, life in the army IS boring... especially when ya having extras. Nevermind, tomorrow i'm sending Antis again to Mt Pleasant for his routinr check-up, this time with the dog van wee.... at least i've got something for me self to do.