Once you get it started, it's hard to stop

A couple days ago, i did something somewhat silly. I was reading her blog and well, she hasn't been updating it for sometime... so checked out some of her friends' blog. i happened to came across her childhood friend's blog and what i read there just got me... started. In his blog, he wrote about his best friend finally being in love again. as i read on i was wondering... could it be her?

Thoughts started to pour in.

Then i don't know what came over me, i emailed him, curious to find out who is that girl he was referring to.

What the fuck was i doing.

Actually that's nothing the only weird thing that happened ever since.

That night i had actually dreamt about her. Usually i hardly ever have dreams that were influenced by previous events... i think this one is erm... hmm. The next day at work, thoughts about what i had read kept popping up 60% of the time. So far since the day i started work my thoughts haven't stray from anyway out of my workplace. Argh it's like a nightmare coming back.

So far in life, i've learnt not to trust peoples' words. they can always tell you one thing, but really they're either doing something else or they're just trying to get you to stop bugging them. Actually i also practising this... it does has its uses though. Yes, everyone is entitled to have their own privacy, honesty may hurt... but at least it can put a stop to something. I'm not pointing out at someone... just that... hmm...

Ah enough of this, it's making me run out of thing to write.


WORK. oh yes... i'm still loving it. currently i'm helping out to remove parts off a 993 model to access the camshaft cover of the engine. Removing is easy, putting it all back is another thing. Looking forward to another week at work!

Yesterday took the car to a workshop near my workplace recommended by my collegue. They tried to repair the broken window mechnism part but cant, but they could order a new set for about $220.... far lower than from the VW workshop which quoted around $400 for just a window. unfortunately my brother couldn't afford to pay fro repairs as yet, next month most probably. I did get the door fixed, that set me back for about $45. dammit, i thought this month i could actually for the first time get to save some money.... looks like i'm gonna go dry a bit sooner than i thought.

mm thats it for today. Work work work, please keep me occupied all day long....

a little update

if only there is such a device that can record your thought instantaneously, wherever and whenever... and all those updated automatically into blogs....

nowadays i hardly have much free time to blog, most of the time other than work, i surf and update myself a little on the net or watch tv. by the time i'm done, i'm already all tired up ready to sleep. Work's great, getting to learn new stuff everyday. It's a really great way to keep myself occupied, a day's a pretty straightforward. Wake up, go to work, come home, dinner/tv/net, sleep. No longer is my mind wandering about everything around me, cos i've my passion right in front of me. :)

But of course sometimes.... thoughts do come back. I still missing having fun with a certain someone, even thought i pretty much lost a lot of my old character. At least i'm glad that she's doing what she likes and maybe she's enjoying some new company, i can never know (cos she never reveals any). Meeting up now is something that can happen through chance, most likely when least expected.

Now that i'm into this line of work, i really begin to wonder how am i gonna meet someone new? I know i can never get enough of my hands-on work on cars, but whenever i see couples outside having fun... it just all comes back. Makes me really wanna re-live that happy and carefree teenage love life.

For now, i'll just live to not knowing what's ahead of me. I can hope and pray all i want, nothing's gonna happen till the day when something really happens.

I like my job

Oh yes i do! working with tools, getting hands on.... oh oh and getting test rides, like today i got to sit in the Porsche 911 Turbo! OMG the acceleration is like ROCKET power, the first time i experience i was like wondering when is it gonna stop! After that, i just kept loving it and loving it and loving it....

Not only am i passionate about cars. My love for speed has just been born.

But... the 8-5 job is a real total change to my usual lifestyle. I've been sleeping rather early these days, due to the lack of an afternoon nap. Well, doesn't matter, i'm sure i'll get used to it in time.

Oh and here's the ride that i sat in. A hour later the owner came to pick up his car and left. :D

Man, it was like a dream come true.

Back... stiff!

Urgh... had this stiff back since yesterday. I wonder what caused it, it's so uncomfortable! kinda brings my mood down :( Plus recently been having some difficulty in getting some good sleep. I always seem to wake up much earlier than usual and it's almost impossible to go back to sleep! sucks sucks sucks...

Well let's put that aside, cos i finally got my PAY! After WEEKS of waiting, i finally recieved my much needed money... but bloody hell, of all days they had to send it so that i get in on a friday. by the time i deposit my cheques i can only get the money from monday afternoon onwards... cunning bastards. Ah, doesn't matter, as long as i get my money, i'm happy.

Oh yes, yesterday was my first day of work at Porsche... actually to tell ya the truth, it didn't really start off as i thought i'd have expected. because i don't have any experience in mechinics, i couldn't really do much or be as much help either. All i could do was look and observe helplessly at the other guys doing their work. Although i was told to try and mix around a little, these guys... well they aren't really the socialable type, plus they're busy doing their own work, i had a hard time trying to so-called mix in. I felt so out of place as much as they see me. At least there was this assistant workshop manager who is more of the outgoing and friendly type, gave me some simple stuff to do once in a while and gave me a quick tour around the compound. Didn't know that somewhere in the compound houses the big boss's collection of cars and bikes, plus 3 Rolls Royce hidden from view. The only best thing about that day was the test ride in the Porsche Cayenne... man that car was big, powerful and smooth! although it was the base model, it already was packed full of gadgets and other electronic stuff... including a GPS navigation system! I never thought i'd ride in a Porsche... but that ride reassured me that i think i made the right choice to work in this line. :D

Today unfortunately was another umm... waste of time to make my presence there... that nice was on leave so i was pretty left alone almost the entire time. BUT nevermind, i still look forward to better days.

Feeling pretty restless, moody and the back... making me feel uncomfortable most of the time, just really didn't really feel like doing anything. Grrr... :S

Yay, re-connected!

Once again i MUST thank Stef for helping me out.. again. You rule. You're queen. I shall bow to you whenever we meet.

Kidding.

ANYWAY.... the past weeks without the internet had been wah... t-e-r-r-i-b-l-e. It's like going cold turkey, drug addict without drugs... or something like that. The only source of entertainment was TV... once in a while i would do some cleaning in my room, read past issue magazines, play real old sckool pc games... waste my sms on Sharon... CAN DIE AH. Fortunately, on the last day of my work, i actually picked up someone's credit card and ez-link card with some $30 value in it, saved me a lot on transport. :) As for the credit card, i actually just dumped it somewhere else, haven't figured out how to use it without getting caught so for now, it's pretty useless to me.

As of now, i have just used up ALL of the ez-link card value... so it's back to square one. :(

BUT! my bumming days are gonna be over! No i didn't strike lottery, neither have i received my fucking PAY yet.... i'm gonna start work soon! Oh yes... from 9th September onwards, i'll be working at Tran Eurokars as an Apprentice Technician! oh yeah! To which department, i'm not sure... either Rolls Royce or Porsche, i dunno. Doesn't matter, i'm finally able to work with cars! pay isn't so pleasing to hear though, $800 a month (b4 CPF, fuck)... i'm still working on minimum wage.. but at least i'm getting $$$. Wee!

Mmm... got so much to write but... i got better things to do first hee.... lotsa updating to be done man.... finally, i'm seeing some light in my life!