It doesn't take much to screw things up.

Why is it that, of all the things you have done so far, it that one little thing... which you somehow never thought much about it, that can make so much of a difference.
Why is it so unfair... after all the good you have done, all it takes is one little bad action and that's it. Poof.
Why do i always make the same mistake? Why can't i change myself? Hmm why am i blaming myself... why the hell did i do that?!

(Some thoughts later...)

Why was i so stupid to do that...

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Why is it somehow, that I screw up my own life all the time. :(

Week Wrap

One word for it: Bleh. Ya lah... for today's entry i'm feeling a bit... 'singaporlean' lah so... do excuse my ya-ya language hor. cos today i feeling DAMN SIAN.

this week ah... some say it's what 'valentine's week' cos v-day was on tuesday. Tuesday? i had classes. After class? go home. ya you heard me right, i went HOME and stayed HOME all the way. No date, no meetups... boring loh! k lah partly cos a little low on $ to splurge on ppl hehe... but i know i'm not the only one lah. others also complained wah no date, so sian, dun go out and stay home... no flowers boohoo.... ah then i asked them out and? they laff at me. "you? small boy lah... heehehhehh :p" bra-di hell. but i kinda used to it so... its more or less nothing lah. just another day.

workplace.. ah things are getting better alreadi. now me getting involved with more work and now they introducing short training sessions on saturdays. STILL... time flies too damn slow... i'm always dying for the clock to reach 5:30pm everyday... and also pray that they don't stay on and do unecessary overtime.

Yesterday afternoon was a bra-di hot day... so was intending to go take a dip in the pool with a fren but skali... clouds came and braaaaagghhh.... thunderstorm. KNN. end up hang out at her place then went to watch movie Final Destination 3... wah lao that show damn power. same plot lah no surprise (duh), but the dying scenes ah... fwahhh... bloody everywhere man. see already how they died damn... fwah. so ppl out there... pls go watch. fuking worth it hahaha... knn man...

then today... another hot day... but no one to go out with. suppose to meet serene but she last minute went to play me out... say her fren stayed at her place till 6am and now she think too tired to go out... please lor u got like 9 hours of sleep at least not enough meh... can sleep at 8am then wake up at 2 or 3pm and go out to meet at 5 what... sigh. this week also ah.. so many ppl played me out... damn tu-lan. cos i usually set time aside to meet frens, especailly those i havent met in a while or who i really wanna meet lah.. then skali last min Oh! cannot... imagine lah... if someone did that to u, how u feel? Serene, if ya reading dun take this too personal hor.. cos i happen to be in a bit foul mood so... a bit moody lah, just want to vent out. i'd still like to meet u sometime next week and help fix up yr laptop. :)

ooook... now got some visitors in my house... to see my dad lah. he recently got into hospital again for the blood thingy and just got home yesterday. then earlier on i just woke up then walked out of the room then the visitors in the living room... and i was half-naked, scratching here and there. paiseh man hahahaahaha... sigh sian...

The Fine Line Between Enough and Too Much

Yep, that's the reason why i'm here for this entry, today. Take a guess... nah i change my mind, wouldn't wanna go into too much details... cos I, more or less realised that i may have a problem when it comes to stopping before it gets... too much.

I'm sure some of you guys out there who know me, that i sometimes have a problem with the way i express myself. No surprise i suppose... but this particular one, or rather which i just and only just had... brought back some bad memories of my past silly deeds which landed me in so much trouble. When you get too comfortable with what's around you, you tend to lose hold of what you are suppose to stick to and then you'll start to go with your feelings, instincts and so on so forth... somehow you'll do stuff naturally and in some cases, unknowingly to youself that in doing so, for a momentarily instance you become oblivious to the other party's feeling or how they see the situation. You thought what you did was all in good nature and heart, but the other thinks it's too much. By the time you realise your mistake, it mayt have been too late.


Well, actually that would have to depend on the other party too. :p

Yeah... somehow i really really need to learn where to draw the line in such things. To some, it's probably a piece of cake or... built-in even. Whereas slow-pokes like me.... gotta need a little more effort in discovering it... ok maybe ALOT more effort. I guess i still have a lot to learn... Life's an ever-lasting learning journey, I just take a bit more time than usual. :p

Next week is Valentine's Day. OOoOoOoh all the flowers, bouquets, cards, teddies, balloons, whatever you can think of... all of them can only be found in between a man and a woman, aka a couple. And where will you find these couples? Restaurants, movie theatres, parks, secluded car parks, downtown streets... blahblahblahblbhab love is in air yadiyadiyahhh... yeah i'm complaining cos i ain't got a date for that night. :D Actually i was thinking of asking someone... but thanks to my lack of ability to... sigh dun wanna mention it... i screwed this one up on myself, i know. but as of now... maybe it's still a little early to tell... on the other hand i had just asked a favour... oops.

Work these days have been... well ok things are slowly slowly improving. What would really improve the environment around is the installation of more stratigically placed fans. like omg today... i was swapping tires for a car... just 1 car, 4 tires and i was sweating like a pig... geez felt soooo freaking uncomfy. had to take refuge in the air-con rest room like every 15mins or so. Bleh.

mmm guess that's it for now. Been out at night for the past few days and you know... a working person's rest is never enough so.. i'm gonna try get as much anyway haha... zzzz...

I promised Serene that I'll update my blog for her to read :D

There... i put your name, happy? :D Hahahaha... but thanks for reminding me to update, almost forgot that i actually have some followers here lol :)

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone! Not chinese? I don't care, happy chinese new year! This is the lunar year of the DOG! My year! My year! Though bragging about it doesn't really prove to have any real beneficial gains... still it's the year of the DOG! :p Like last year, not much going on.... no house visiting, stay at home.... blarhhh. Reunion dinner was outside though on the eve, food saarrrckkked. Over the last 3 days made my own night outings, i hadda go out! Watched movies, eat eat eat, late night suppers and catching up friends and.... just realized that i can't really write much today. Really, i think i kinda lost the feel of writing... i was quite used to pouring my sorrows and anger and frustrations for the past year... to actually write something happy that happened to me, like... "Oh you know what i did today???? i cut my nails! so funky! ow, chic!!"

can't believe i wrote that.

Mmm... maybe for this entry i'll just post today's events! ah quite interesting actually.... I woke this morning at the usual time, showered, grabbed my stuff, went down to the coffeeshop to order some wanton mee from the stressed out hawker cos it was the only stall open this morning.... took the bus down to Leng Kee where i work... approached the Mini showroom where i noticed that the gates were still closed shut. ok that's odd. usually there would be someone who will arrive damn early to open the doors but i also found out that there was absolutely no one inside. Hmm... ok something is definately... b4 i could finish that thought, another thought cut in, telling me, "Closed = no work = can go home and SLEEP! SLEEP! ZZZ!!!"
For a split second it sounded quite logical... but i had to ask what was going on. Then the security guard told me that everyone was at the main Porsche showroom building for the new year opening and buffet lunch. WTF no one told me that. Apparently every year, on the 1st working day after the holiday, there will be this lion dance opening thingy followed by buffet lunch.... then work resumes from noon onwards. i was like thinking.. f**k i have to go to THERE??? While i stood there for a minute thinking of what to do... one of the guys from there actually back here to give the guards something and saw and.... surprised look, blahblahblah... and ya a lift to there. Lucky me. here's a pic of the lion dancing thingy... a while before there was a lotta ppl cos EVERY stuff was present.


then came the lunch and OMGOOSH sooo much stuff man! crayfish, sushi, cold salad, black pepper chicken, fish fillet cooked in sweet corn sauce omg i loved that... pastry, that yam dessert with sweet corn ahhhh! so full man! plus there was soo much left over... bet a whole bunch of the office stuff "tah bao" a lotta stuff. Oh and everyone was given an ang pow too... $$$! should've went to his house on the first day...

Then back to the Mini showroom to work. No wait... we had to wait for the big boss to arrive then so the formal chinese welcome thingy before entering via then main door.... but the time when we really get to start work... oh 2pm! W00t! yeah time flew kinda fast... not much idling around so... yeah it was good.

Then after work... went to pay off my bills and sigh... the bloody parking fine that cost me $50 $^&^(@%#^&! ya lah it's my mistake... parking in a lot meant for season holders when somehow he was hiding somewhere. Ok i think i'm done for now... really lah no flow from brain to hands to type! clot clot... anyway here's some umm random pictures :D


Yeah... always see this sparrow up there somewhere in the workshop... good thing he/she doesnt poop. :D


Spidey decides to poke Jerry in da eyes. "Web this!!"


Lol....


If only such titles really exist.... i'd buy it!